Ebony magazine has unveiled the alternate Mary J. Blige cover for its October issue.  The queen talks about the passing of soul singer Amy Winehouse, she also talk about a terrible drinking problem that she says would have eventually killed her. Via Ebony
When I got the text about Amy, I was lying down on the bed,’’ says Blige. “I got up and read the message about her death and just lay back down again. I kept getting up and laying back down for some reason. I’d always wanted to work with Amy, so I just couldn’t believe it really. And then it hit me—that could have been me. That really could have been me!
Mary J Blige also revealed that it was her husband Kendu who stepped in before it was too late and helped her turn her life around:
“The problem had snowballed into this thing that was bigger than me. It was bigger than me. And it was definitely going to kill me. So I was like this is it and let’s go.    And I remember sitting on my bed. I swear, I don’t know what death feels like, but I felt like my spirit was trying to leave my body. And I was crying, and I was going please God, no no, not now, I don’t want this. I prayed, like I remember saying a prayer I said God, send me someone to help me.â€
The best thing that you can do to me [is] to challenge me to challenge myself. When I stopped drinking, it was will power. It was prayer. It was really hard. But I cared so much about [Kendu], I didn’t wanna just be this alcoholic burden on him. He doesn’t deserve for me to just be some you know, slum bucket alcoholic. And so, I took responsibility and I, cleaned up as much as I could. But it was hard.
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