Ebony magazine has unveiled the alternateÂ Mary J. BligeÂ cover for its October issue. Â TheÂ queenÂ talks about theÂ passing of soul singer Amy Winehouse, she alsoÂ talkÂ about a terrible drinking problem that she says would have eventually killed her. Via Ebony
When I got the text about Amy, I was lying down on the bed,â€™â€™ says Blige.Â â€œI got up and read the message about her death and just lay back down again. I kept getting up and laying back down for some reason. Iâ€™d always wanted to work with Amy, so I just couldnâ€™t believe it really.Â And then it hit meâ€”that could have been me. That really could have been me!
Mary J Blige also revealed that it was her husband Kendu who stepped in before it was too lateÂ and helped herÂ turn her life around:
â€œThe problem had snowballed into this thing that was bigger than me.Â It was bigger than me.Â And it was definitely going to kill me.Â So I was like this is it and letâ€™s go.Â Â Â Â And I remember sitting on my bed.Â I swear, I donâ€™t know what death feels like, but I felt like my spirit was trying to leave my body.Â And I was crying, and I was going please God, no no, not now, I donâ€™t want this.Â I prayed, like I remember saying a prayer I said God, send me someone to help me.â€
The best thing that you can do to me [is] to challenge me to challenge myself. When I stopped drinking, it was will power.Â It was prayer. It was really hard. But I cared so much about [Kendu], I didnâ€™t wanna just be this alcoholic burden on him.Â He doesnâ€™t deserve for me to just be some you know, slum bucket alcoholic. And so, I took responsibility and I, cleaned up as much as I could. But it was hard.